Isn’t it crazy that the longer we walk with Jesus, the more we begin to think we have something to do with our salvation? I think sometimes we forget that we were once bound by darkness, slaves to sin, hopeless and alone. God came in and rescued us from our darkness and despair and it is such a beautiful thing. He begins to reconcile us and draw us in. The areas that once kept us wrapped in shame and condemnation are now just a distend memory… We are walking with Jesus.. We have finally arrived.. and then, BAM, just like that, we fall again.
Now we’re shocked. But how did I fall? I’m so close to Jesus? I’m good now.. I’ve changed. The truth is you have changed, you are so close to Jesus, but you are still human and sometimes humans are going to be in fact human. It’s a reality but for some reason, when we mess up after salvation, we are shocked and even though we know the cross covers us we run back into hiding. We beat ourselves up. We begin to say things like, “I should have known better!”
Ugh.. I hate “I should have known better!” It gets me every time…
How do we cling to the cross in the midst of “I should have known better” moments? I think the first step is reminding ourselves of a few truths from the word of God.
Romans 3:10 NIV says “As it is written: “There is no one righteous, not even one;”
Isaiah 64:6 NIV says “All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags; we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away.”
In “I should have known better” moments, we must remind ourselves that all of our righteousness is like filthy rags. We must remind ourselves that everything good in us, is the work of a loving God in our lives, not a work of our own doing.
Then we must ask the Lord to open our hearts up to new revelation and truth. If we can push past the instinct to run and hide, we just might find a beautiful new place with the Lord. I love to ask questions. I’m a very inquisitive person, and often times I find myself playing twenty questions with God. Sometimes it becomes excessive, but other times it becomes my saving grace. In asking questions, I find answers. Not because of anything I did, but because God is waiting on me to ask, because He so desperately wants to tell me. My friend Carsen is beautiful and precious and she said something one time that will be forever stuck in my heart. She said, “God is more desperate to get a word to you than you are to get a word from Him.” I love that. He wants to answer my questions and he wants to draw me in when I sin.
Remember he came looking for Adam, and he comes looking for us.
Matthew 7:7 NIV says “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”
Jeremiah 29:12-14 NIV says “Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”
So darling, when you sin, ask him about it. He will bring you back from your captivity. He will draw you into a new place. A beautiful place.
Today ask God some questions. There are no rules, you can ask him anything, he will answer. Jot down your conversation.