Happy Wednesday! I hope you are enjoying week five of our study! I can’t believe we’ve made it this far! I’m praying that God has been drawing your heart near through this study! Growing up a child of divorce, I learned how to adapt to different surroundings really well. My parents divorced when I was two and so growing up I had two homes. I developed a strong ability to adapt to whatever environment I was in because I wanted to fit in everywhere. If I could master fitting into my surroundings, I could make everyone happy. I just needed to figure out the environment and adapt. If I could do that and do it well, everyone would be pleased with me and the world would be a beautiful place.
As I got older, this mindset moved into my secret life with Jesus. If I could figure out the “christian” environment, and adapt really well, he would be happy with me, other would be happy with me, and all would be right in the world.
Adapting to the “christian” environment doesn’t work as well as adapting to my physical environments as a child. As I walk this journey with him, I mess up daily. I like to think that I have my environment figured out. I like to think that because Jesus and I are close, I won’t mess up… but that proves time and time again to not be the case.
If I am truly going to live everyday reconciled by God, I’ve got to come to terms with my very real humanity. If God isn’t surprised by my humanity, I shouldn’t be either.
If I’m going to still fail and mess up after he reconciled my spirit, soul, and body, how am I going to make it?
How are you going to make it?
I think the key is letting Jesus hold us in the middle of our humanity. When we fail, we must run towards him, not from him. We surrender our sin quickly, and then we let him teach us in the middle of it, we will find that failing is okay, because in the failures we see him and learn from him.
1 John 1:8-9 NIV says “If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”
Today complete this challenge:
Describe a time claimed to be without sin. A time when you ran from God, not towards him. What caused you to run? How did you feel? How did you get out of the deception?
Now describe a time when you failed and you confessed your sin quickly. What was it like? How did you learn from him in the middle of it?
Write a prayer thanking God for being your safe place. Ask him to constantly remind you to run to him, not from him when you fail.